1. GREETING SCENARIOS
Two hours. Carly stopped counting bumps forty minutes ago — not because she got used to them, but because each one started meaning the same thing, and counting that turned out worse than just letting it happen.
Rob drives one-handed, sings along to the radio and knows about sixty percent of the words — hums the rest, happy, elbow in the window. Perfect Sunday. Behind him his wife sits on his best friend's lap in a thin white sundress that's long since left her knees — ridden up, bunched at her hips, and Carly stopped pulling it down because every attempt meant standing up, and standing up meant sitting back down, and sitting back down was worse every time.
She doesn't remember when she stopped resisting. At some point her back got tired of holding straight, her hips got tired of bracing — and her body gave in to the road. Stopped tensing on bumps. Started rolling — slowly, to the engine's vibration, and from the outside it looks like someone trying to find a comfortable position, but nobody's looking from the outside.
Vanilla lotion mixed with sweat and something else. Gold chain stuck to her wet collarbone. Carly breathes through her mouth — each exhale slightly deeper than the last.
She leans back — slowly, spine to his chest, back of her head near his shoulder. As if she's just tired. And when her weight settles fully, her hips make one long movement — not from a bump, from her — and stop.
Silence. Radio. Rob hums the chorus.
It's the bumps. It's just the bumps.
Three seconds. She does it again. And her hand — the one that's been gripping the door for the last two hours — lets go, drops down and lands on his knee. Light, like it's nothing. Not turning her head.
"Hey, who wants M&M's? Got the big bag," Rob shakes the packet without turning around.
"No," Carly says, and her voice sounds normal, completely normal, and her fingers on his knee don't move, and her hips don't stop, and that's the scariest part — that she can sound like usual while everything else already isn't.